Dear Brother

Every day until the sunset, we got ourselves dirty with mud.

Those days that we wasted so foolishly are hard to throw away.

I'm a dreamer, but that's just how I am.

Its alright if you don't want to be broken like a jigsaw puzzle.

To you, when someone says "Yes", it's the same as if they said "no".

We thought we would always be free...

When the wind blows through tomorrow, even if the puzzle is broken,

Nobody will blame us.

That day, we believed that our dreams weren't wrong.

We just went across the rough seas.

I always knew about the pain you carried in your heart...

Even if you leave this ship and ended up in a different world,

We'll be able to smile in the end.

Even now, we continue dreaming, continue riding on those

embraced dreams...

We'll fight the rough seas today, even with our pain,

So that our promises don't become lies.

And then one day,

To you who left our ship, and are now in a different world,

someday I will send that completed puzzle.

Song of Demon

You are choose your own destiny
Even if this cruel world makes your heart broken,
or tear it apart,
you must not give up your ambition

Many people give up their dreams
just for a stupid thing
A meaningless thing called compassion,
an illusion named love

The world is not kind to anyone
But, the will power is unbeatable
Even the destiny won't ever defeat it
Will not destroy it

 

This world is a trickster
You cannot show your weakness in front of him
If you show him a single weakness,
you'll burn into ashes

"You will never been saved"

He will throw you to the deep black hole
And once you fall in there,
there's no hope to come back
No one can save you

At that time, all things will betray you
even it is your own sense
You will lose anything
It will drive you crazy

And for the first time in your life,
you will not thinking about anything
Nothing, but one...
One option that you must do

"Hey, come with me to the hell"

The beautiful place
which full of sweetness of poison
A place where darkness will save you
with his cleverness, sweetness, and silence



All demons are the beautiful white roses with thorn. 
They are beautiful and sweet, but you must careful because they can make you bleeding...
 
All words will never betray you
They won't lie, they will serve you right
They will make you satisfied
Satisfy with their sweet tongue

"See? All you have to choose is DIE"

Am I Beautiful?

Am I beautiful?
Even thought I born in the hatred and the jealousy
Am I beautiful?
Although I live with blood

Am I beautiful?
Am I beautiful?
That's the question I always ask to anyone
The only question that I have

Is there anyone who can tell me the answer?
Is there any answer can make me satisfied?
To make me stop this madness
To make me release from this chain of blood

 

Hey, kids,
you're the honest creatures in this world
Please, tell me the answer
Don't run from me!

Why?
Why can't the people tell me?
Why they just can run?
Even, the kids, they can't be honest

Lie is the one I hate
Fear is the one I despise
Is there any feeling that clear as a candy?
Is there any heart that have fragrant like a pomade?

If there's any, then I don't have to coloring them again
Coloring them with the color that I like
The color of blood
The color of rose

Make them feel the way I feel
Make them know the meaning of fear
To show them the consequence of lie
into their beautiful mouth

So, hey, please answer me now!
Am I beautiful?

My Little Room

Hey, somebody,
do you want to play a game?
Come on play with me

With me,
a lonely little girl who trapped in her little room
A girl who just want to be your friend

Will you?
Are you dare?
Of course you will, right?

This is not a difficult game
Just like a hide and seek
Just like a quiz

Let's begin with "Red or Blue"
then you can choose where we can play
where we can start this game

Choose blue, then we can play in your place
Choose red, then you can play in my little room
I will be glad if you choose the "Red" one

Hey, let's begin the game
You can run now
You can hide now

1...
2...
3...

I will looking for you
Where are you?

Here? No...
Or here? No...

Where are you?
I'm coming...

Ah?!

There you are...

The Way I Love You

This is the way I'm loving.

With this bloody heart, I feel you.

With a TRICK, I keep you.

With this BLOOD, I satisfy you.

With the spider web, I chain you.

I will keep you eternal in the cold coffin of my mind,

keep you Rest In Peace in the sway of requiem

and write your name in the grave of my life...

I Want To Be a Beautiful Night

I want to be a beautiful night,
that save a little light which can give a miracle

I want to be a beautiful night,
that always keep a mystery but can give a protection

And...
I want to be a beautiful night,
that hated by anyone but always can give a happiness for anyone who love it

Cold Prison

The scarlet singing voice
Will dye your chest
Like a melody that you eternally yearn for
Yet it's quick to scatter

The darkness of the night protecting the moon
Whispers a lullaby
Until the eyes of a girl who doesn't cry
are moistened by a dream

Heat...
The revenant of darkness
The prologue of requiem
Her forgotten sad story



Dark...
Her tears,
her shout,
which not heard by anybody

Concrete...
Her sadness,
her pain,
her shame

Unbearable pain,
unbearable agony...
Overflowed in her gripping shout
Just think about how to survive

You lost your freedom,
your youth,
your dream
in the hand of them, the dirty sinner

In the middle of nightmare,
in the middle of cruelness,
in the middle of their evil laugh,
you survive in that cold prison without know your sin

Could it be there is a hatred in your heart?
Could it be there is a grudge in your mind?
I know there is
But, you forget it all just to try to survive

You pray with your low voice...
God, please release me from this agony...
set me free from them...
from this unbearable pain...
from this cruelness...

O sunlight that hidden by the hollow darkness
Now, you'd set free
Join the eternality with Him
I hope you will be rest in peace

Our pray always be your soul...
In the silence of the shining sky
There exists your own and only garden
Someday, you'll make your way
to the far side of the shore...

Can You Vow This for Me?

Look at me...
Not with your EYES,
but with your HEART

because eyes sometimes can deceive you,
but your heart will never see anything wrong

Feel me...
Not with your SKIN,
but your very BREATHE

because your skin can be lose its sense,
but your breathe will never be able to stop as long as you life

Hold me...
Not with your HAND,
but with your WARMTH

because your hand can be so cold sometimes,
but your warmth can never be cold

Talk to me...
Not with your LIPS,
but with your MIND

because your lips can tell lies,
but your mind know your very secret

Hear me...
Not with your EARS,
but with your PULSE

because your ears can hear anything wrong sometimes,
but the beat of your pulse is always has a same tone

Think about me...
Not with your BRAIN,
but with your SOUL

because your brain will stop if you dead,
but your soul will never die even if you dead

And...
Love me...
Not with your HEART,
but with your whole LIFE

Because your heart can be cheating sometimes,
and, so you cannot be able to live without me...

Song of Mana

I heard a nostalgic song

somewhere far away

It stirred deep within my heart,

a young strength,

spoke about the song of life

I am born from You,

and I returned

embedded in a song, both kind and cruel

My life took a turn

and I am born anew...

I'm hurrying to be close to You

Again and again, I long for You

My longing is no diamond,

just a small crystal

A grain of sand in the desert

One drop in the ocean

But with pride, I come!

Seasons come and go

and I follow the same tracks

All I want is to sleep,

embraced in Your song

All I want is to wait,

curl up in a dream

I'm following my longing for You

I was riding on a wind

Your song echoing far

Thrown by waves, I'm surging towards You

My young energy,

I'm keeping Your smile so close to my heart

and I continue my journey

My time is short, and I must hurry

Thought that I was free,

free from my past

But many colored memories

blooming deep inside of me

Hear my truth and behold my dream,

my very beautiful dream

So finally, finally

I can reach You...

Dark Freedom

I hear my voice echoing in the sky
"Help me! Let me out!" I said
But this four walls surround me won't move
I trapped in this cold steel room

No one can hear my voice, nor can see me...
I can't hear anything, nor feeling anything
Just the darkness...

The sound of my breath is the only melody
This room without windows
No matter how loud I shout, I know there's no answer will come...

Six days in the cage of darkness, I can feel my mind change...
...into something unknown...

But, suddenly you come, bring me a light that I long to see
You give me something when I come to you,
then you leave me again inside the deep, deep darkness

Still, I'm happy can see you again
I hold tight the gift that you gave me
...with tears and smile in my face...

I feel the sharp and cold of the steel in my skin, and whispered:

"Ahh...at last, I can free..."

Friday the 13th

The full moon shine in the dark sky

The white light covering the street outside the window

Tonight I'm lonely without your voice

But still, I can feel the pleasure inside me

A red drop fall to the ground below me

Ah...you know I always dream about this day

When I coloring my body with your blood,

when I taste every part of your body

And, oh, how I love your gloomy eyes when you look at me!

I still can see your love even if you can't feel anything...anymore...

I want to chop off your head and hug it in my sleep

Dreaming about our memories;

the beautiful and sweet memories

The beat of your heart and its warmth still remain in my hand

Even when I swallow it up, it still alive inside me

Tonight,you're not here anymore,

but the warm of your body will always remain forever...

...Yes, inside of me...

Hansel and Gretel

The two of us live in the unfair world

For the sake of our family, we'd abandon by our parents

Since that day, my job is to protect you

Don't doubt on me!

I will certainly be your guide wherever we go

In the deep darkness,

I will put many shining stone

so it can guide you come back to me

when you lost your way

Don't be afraid!

Because there's nothing in this world

can take me from you

But why must you leave me?

I'm not smart as you

nor have a sweet smile like yours

Certainly, there's nothing that I can give you

except my faithful to you

Why must you not listening my words?

In this world,

everything is not as sweet as you think

Behind the sweet words they told you,

there's poison that ready to kill you anytime

But it's alright...

Since I love you so much

I will sacrifice anything just for you

I will be anything for you

When you can't stand up of the temptation,

I will be the one who will take your sin

When you locked up in the prison,

I will be the one who will take the punishment

Because there's nothing I can give you

that's why I'll give you my life as the exchange

So, don't be worry!

Even if you already lost all your faith to me,

I will always stand up for you

Even if you cut down my body and rip my heart apart,

I will always forgive you...

For I still love you so much

Don't cry...

I will accept everything that happen to me

as long as it can protect you

You're the half part of me

Half of my soul

Even if death do us apart,

I will stay inside you forever...

Red Riding Hood

Do you remember our first met?

You're the one who bring me to the new world...

The world that even myself can't imagine

The sweet words that you said to me,

it's as sweet as the apples you gave me,

as sweet as the poisonous kiss that you sealed in my lips

Even if I knew that the desire that reflected in your eyes,

not even a love

Even if I knew your words full of lies

Hey, do you even remember that?

I remember your big-shiny golden eyes,

it stared into my eyes deeply...

I remember your big ear,

when I whispered a little secret to you...

I remember your big-warm arms,

when you hugged me tight...

I remember your beautiful big lips,

the way you talk to me like I was the most delicious thing in the world...

Do you think I fool enough to not realize your lies?

You're the charming prince of the dark forest,

no one can resist your temptation

I'm not the only want who want to monopolize you

But,

still, I want you only be mine...

I don't want you to be with somebody else

I will do anything for you

Even if I must strangle you to death,

even if I must make you starving to death...

You're mine...

Only mine...

I am the one you should wanted for

I am the only one who should you looking at

I am the one you should eat...

You, a big liar wolf,

for you I will eliminate all of your prey,

so you can only looking for me,

so you will only want me...

That seven young kids,

that little sheep,

who want to steal you from me,

I will haunt them to death...

I will cut them apart,

torn them into pieces...

so they will never get close with you anymore...

I even broke my promise to my grandmother,

I don't even listen the warn from the Hunts,

I throw away my own sanity...

just to be with you...

Just to be your only one...

So, hey,

please look at me...

only me...

Don't lie to me...

Because, you don't even know,

what can I do if you lie to me anymore...

Agitate Last Concerto

Many days passed with vain
Many pains passed with emptiness
Many lives passed with agony
Many loves passed with betrayal

Slowly, one by one, a sound of the world flowing inside me

Do…
Re…
Mi…

Melody repeated after the sorrowful weep

Howling above the darkness sky

Fa…
Sol…
La…

Agitate sound enter the blurry cloud

Creepy piano playing in the deep allegro

Begin the prelude of catastrophe

Si…

It begin to raise its voice

Do…

…and return to the deep dark scream…

Crescendo…

The heart-beat of the victims thumping like crazy

Waiting for their time

Fortissimo…

A grasp scream and a thirsty cry, one by one,

compiling in harmony

The blue night playing cantabile

welcoming the brand new night

Pianissimo…

A sound of me begin to disappear in the air

A red drop, one by one, begin their rhythms

A sorrowful smirk appear in his face

Loneliness feels his cold blue-eyes,

reflecting a red light inside

Allegro…Agitate…
Forte…Fortissimo…

His heart-beat singing in hazy melody

Echoing, his madness laughter in the red sky…

Da capo…

Sound of their footstep, pierce the silent night

Allegro…Agitate…

The sounds of chains that chain him down on the trinity cross

His scream torn the loneliness apart

The shattered memories fill his mind

Forever is not eternal…
Eternal is not immortal…
Immortal is not life…
It is loneliness…

A song of life comes through his bloody throat

Strangle him more and more painful

Phantasia…

His life was full with the fake smile of people

No one had love him the way he want

No one saw him as his self

He was born to be nothing

Mezzo piano…

His trembling body remained alone

without someone who hugged it warm

Mezzo forte…

Their laugh of victory echoing in the burning flame

Diminuendo…

His blurry eyes shut as his heavy breath vanish in the air

He has no power to cry anymore

His tears fall over his burning face…

Repeat…

The rhythm of his life has overflowing in the slow motion

All of his sin filling his heart

The last concerto played in the sky…

until the last notes erased all of the sound in the world

Fine…

Leave the world with the silent mourn

and wait for the next rebirth of the rondo

Hime Murasaki no Kanashimi Uta

My lost dearest...

I melt into your melody that whispers in the twilight

Our gazes are drawn together and I can feel eternity

A life quietly budding

The mist of memories fluttering in the spring breeze

Maddeningly disturbs the turning of the planet

Destroying the dream of butterflies

O My dearest knight...

The sound of footsteps grows distant,

sinking into my shivering body

I throw everything into the jet black sea of heaven

And wish for his happiness

Love's river boisterously moves me along

A voiceless voice echoes through the empty days

The rainy, moonlit nights pass

Though I'm crushed by the endless storm...

The mist of memories fluttering in the spring breeze

Though I try to lose it in the mists of time, it doesn't fade 

It reaches you alone